Recovering from a late- summer, mild case of Covid (is that an oxymoron?), I’m noticing how much more tired I get when I run out of go-juice. Fighting with myself to notice and not judge. My intent is to practice self-kindness (i.e., not “powering through” regardless of consequences). And not to jump to the conclusion that “I will never feel energized and whole again.”
As I write, I am enjoying a surprisingly warm and luminous late October Sunday afternoon in northeast Ohio. Breath is moving fully, naturally, through the body. Sitting in the window at my favorite coffee shop (Blackbird, in Lakewood), I am taking in the light, energy, chi. Allowing myself to be restored by the responsive creative matrix of Life in which we are.
Does Covid change us? Yes, it does. Can we – will I – use that fact, that awareness, to change my behavior to a new normal: To take in, breathe in, open to the Life energy always all around (and within) me/us?
May we/I choose to respond affirmatively, again and again. Remembering that I don’t have to fuel or finance that opening, that flow, that gift.
We swim in life energy, breathe it in, every moment. Our change (my change) is to stop acting as if I have to make it all happen. In this culture of do-do-do, to pause. Breathe in. Open. Changing myself, changing ourselves, changing our culture, one breath at a time. Becoming the change. Literally.
Rev. Mary
